Deciding Fate

Here's the deal, since I can't make a decision on how to confess my feeling to her, I will let Fate decide my fate.

If anyone of you happen to read this blog and know who I am, come and approach me say "Just Go For Her", I will confess to her. If there are 5 persons come to me and say the same thing within 1 month, I have no more denial in my life. In fact, two things can be observed:

1. How many people actually notice about you? In fact I've changed my facebook profile, revealing my website (blog) to public.

2. In fact, this has a very little chance (less than 1% of the people will read about my FULL blog or notice my facebook status). If it really has 5 people, SUCH MINIMAL CHANCE, then I will have no more denial, God decided it for me.

Let the faith decide. Law of attraction please come in.

Starting from 25/11/2011.

真心话

对我而言，每个女人旁边多多少少都一定会有不是“男朋友的男朋友­”

对她而言，我因该就是她那位不是男朋友的男朋友

她很封闭自己的世界，等到一攻一防瓦解她的防御了以后，才懂得她­的世界多么复杂

不过越懂她，自己就越來越寂寞；原來我曾经愛过她，也曾经隐藏过­一言不发

到了最后才想，原來要脱离好朋友这么困难

Face it, Friends

Facebook friends, over 1000. So what? This is a very common phenomena in Facebook nowadays where people tend to simply accept friends they do not know. However, when there's problem who will truly be the one who can help you?

Very funny fact in Facebook nowadays, people just can simply like others' posts, but dare not to speak to the stranger friend. Remembering Facebook is only getting famous in Malaysia around 2007 I would say, and people tend to add friends from 2007 to 2011.

How bout your primary or secondary school friends? Have you forgotten them? Do you still remember who WAS or WERE your best friend(s) in primary school? Yes you can answer it, but can you say that you're still contacting them?

I, also belong to this society, but I have lesser friends, because I know which friends are the ones which I can better communicate with. Yes I ignore 80% of the friends in my list, I must ADMIT. But when it comes to such dilemma, I tend to become selfish and talk to those I KNOW BETTER.

Somedays in future, I might add more friends and till then, I might ignore 90% of the friends. Sad fact, but it is truth.



Some of the friends whom I can best share my feelings and thinkings to: Lim Keng Hwa (secondary school friend), Ng Kah Hoo (primary school friend), Ooi Shih Chern (primary school friend), Lee Kian Yeung (primary school friend), Cha Yong Khang (secondary school friend), Tan Ai Vee (secondary school friend), Yong Wei Yee (college friend).

Thank you for being my friends :) Appreciate it alot.

那些年，我们一起想的回忆

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳




其实，有谁不想对自己喜欢的女孩表白？
人们往往在失去后，才会有所回忆。。。
明知道这样会很痛苦，但我们愿意承受。。。
到最后，才回想：

那些年，我想要追的女孩。
那些年，我想要的结果。
那些年，我一直想的回忆。

其实，如果能够陪在她身边，分担她的喜怒哀乐，一心一意地在生活上帮助她，就算没有得到她的人，拥有这些回忆也超有所值！

Karen 龚柯允 - 简单的我

安静的你
安静的我
谁先开头
你的不安即使我懂
这次换我为你主动

爱了太久
爱过太多
忘了初衷
谁在乎你有多贵重
我只要你听得懂

不是分轻重
你在我的眼中
从来都不曾失败过
不需要你撑起着天空
只要你的双手包围我

我需要你给的并不多
只要你能永远陪着我
却了解我的脆弱
倾听我沉默
手心太冷你会牵着我

我需要你给的并不多
一点温柔和你的幽默
你给怎样的生活
一起走 眼前再多的诱惑
依然爱我
简单的我想要的不多

不是分轻重
你在我的眼中
从来都不曾失败过
不需要你撑起着天空
只要你的双手包围我

我需要你给的并不多
只要你能永远陪着我
却了解我的脆弱
倾听我沉默
手心太冷你会牵着我 oh~

我需要你给的并不多
一点温柔和你的幽默
你给怎样的生活
一起走 眼前再多的诱惑
依然爱我
简单的我想要的不多

简单的我想要的不多 oh ho~
我需要的只要你爱我 ohh...~
爱我



Lovely song C=

洪卓立 鍾舒漫 - 傻瓜

洪：要不是突然看到你眼睛會说话　也許不會對你装傻
鍾：所以我決定收下　你的花　相信你　說的每句話
洪：是你讓我的心跳每秒鐘快幾下　突然想吻你的面頰
鍾：所以我閉上雙眼　幻想著　期待那些浪漫佳話　花前月下
洪：你也在想我嗎
鍾：你和我一樣嗎
洪：如果愛真的來臨
合：我們會牽手迎接嗎
洪：我是傻瓜　雨聲嘩嘩　晚風沙沙
鍾：想到未來還是有點害怕
洪：我會陪在你身邊　每個今天
鍾：可是明天你會不會愛上新的她
洪：我是傻瓜　雨聲嘩嘩　晚風沙沙
鍾：未知的路　我們是否　要一起出發
合：海角天涯　一直到青春變成白髮
鍾：我只希望你
洪：只希望你
合：叫我傻瓜
洪：你也在想我嗎
鍾：你和我一樣嗎
洪：如果愛真的來臨
合：我們會牽手迎接嗎
洪：我是傻瓜　雨聲嘩嘩　晚風沙沙
鍾：想到未來還是有點害怕
洪：我會陪在你身邊　每個今天
鍾：可是明天你會不會愛上新的她
洪：我是傻瓜　雨聲嘩嘩　晚風沙沙
鍾：未知的路　我們是否　要一起出發
合：海角天涯　一直到青春變成白髮
鍾：我只希望你
洪：只希望你
合：叫我傻瓜
洪：我是傻瓜　雨聲嘩嘩　晚風沙沙
鍾：想到未來還是有點害怕
洪：我會送你一個家　也許不大
鍾：但是足夠把我們的　夢想都裝下
洪：大傻瓜　雨聲嘩嘩　晚風沙沙
鍾：未知的路　我們是否　要一起出發
合：海角天涯　一直到青春變成白髮
鍾：我只希望你
洪：只希望你
合：叫我傻瓜
合：原來一世聰明　為你變傻




傻瓜，不是温岚的傻瓜。

Contradict Thinking

I remember Mr. Lim Chin Hock (my previous Entrepreneurial Skills lecturer and tutor) said this before, "price can be a double-edged sword". It can cut both you and your competitor. Meaning? You can either gain competitive advantage if you are putting the correct price, cutting your competitor to gain more market share. It goes the different way if you put the wrong price.

Well, for me it is same for our thinking!

"A mind is a terrible thing to waste"

The more you think, the more you will be conflicting with the real world. Perhaps thinking too much will lead to greater negative energy accumulated in your body.

As for now, I'm so dead boring that I can go to sleep now and wake up the next morning. Yet, this lead me to another thinking. People are so contradicting.

When you're studying, you always wish that holiday comes as soon as possible so that you don't have to care about shit and have a wonderful, peaceful, assignment-free day. But when you wish is granted, your shitty thinking comes again -- Studying is still the best.

What on Earth... IRONIC DEAD SHIT FACT

Can there be any Blue Ocean Strategy for..... Entertainment? Please, geniuses please discover one.

Unwrappable Fire

Is it that hard to conceal your emotional expression? Or is it I have no talent with it?


Seems like the secret is like a spreading fire, soon turning the forest into burning sea of fire. Haze and pollution will be created and in the end, I will get nothing more but ashes of sorrow and empty land.


Or view this is in another way, perhaps the empty land is what best for construction, let it be housing area, national park and so on, providing more shelter and happiness to more people?


I remember saying this to myself, "I will get into trouble very soon if I develop or invest myself too much in it". But I didn't know the day would come so fast.


Let it flow as it goes.

《好朋友只是朋友》- 郁可唯

"好朋友只是朋友 还是朋友 不能够占有
我知道什么时候回头 不打扰你的自由"


真的吗？


或许吧。。。

I really really wish you were here, now

Although the chances for you reading this blog is less than 1%, but if you are reading this now...

I really really wish you were here. I DO.

My feeling now, like a skyscraper

Skies are crying,
I am watching,
Catching teardrops in my hands.
Only silence, as it's ending,
Like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel
Like there's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have,
You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper.
Go on and try to tear me down.
I will be rising from the ground,
Like a skyscraper,
Like a skyscraper.

As the smoke clears,
I awaken,
And untangle you from me.
Would it make you feel better
To watch me, while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken,
But I'm standing on my feet.
You can take everything I have,
You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper.
Go on and try to tear me down.
I will be rising from the ground,
Like a skyscraper,
Like a skyscraper.

Go run, run, run.
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear.
Yeah, ohh.
Go run, run, run.
Yeah, it's a long way down,
But I am closer to the clouds,
Up here.

You can take everything I have,
You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper.

Ohhh

Go on and try to tear me down.
I will be rising from the ground,
Like a skyscraper,
Like a skyscraper.
(Like a skyscraper)
Like a skyscraper,
Like a skyscraper.

Betrayal

Well, this topic is not about betrayal regarding friends, family or couples.

It is much more about how your actions can betray what you want to express.

I find that some people are so open when they talk or write about something, they will not try to hide what they want to express (in simple, I call that honest and naive). While some others try to cover what they want to express by sacarsm, or just simply change the topic (Yes, I'm one of them).

I want to focus more on typing behaviour and how will it betray you. For example, when you see someone is typing for a very long time, then he/she gives u a very simple answer such as "haha", "lol", etc etc etc (normally comes with one word), you will eventually know he/she tries to hide something.

Simple enough?

Next, if you were chatting with someone (with instant real-time reply), halfway through the conversation you asked him/her some sensitive questions and he/she stops reply. After a few minutes (mostly 5-10mins), he/she replies you back with simple answer, then you know that his action has betrayed him.

You will say, well maybe suddenly he/she was away or busy. But from my experience tell me, most of them tries to hide something. And most them will go offline very fast with sentence like, "hey i gtg, chat with you next time, bb", or just instant logoff.

Few possibilities:
1. He/she really got urgent matter (possibility 10%)
2. He/she is trying to hide something from you (possibility 65%)
3. His/her house suddenly no electricity (possibility 5%)
4. Modem disconnected (possibility 20%)


Such amusing facts -_-

Underlying Truth

Not long ago, I saw a post regarding the difference between boys and girls (in terms of facebook popularity)

For girls, you simply post a random post, u will immediately get a few "likes" and "comments" flooded in seconds. Even if you post a random post such as "Hi", your hotmail will be spammed in seconds.

For boys, no one cares about your wall post, unless u're famous, handsome, or you posted interesting quotes.

This is a trend happening in Facebook right now, I mean people are so realistic -- where weaklings shall be abandoned.

Sometimes I wonder, how long will this trend be going on....?


There's a lyrics quote from The Band Perry - If I Die Young

"A penny for my thoughts, oh no I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing
Funny when you're dead how people start listening"


It simply says that a person get no notices from anyone when he is still living, except after his death, people start to talk about him, remember him and pity him.


Realistic people?

Sports Marathon, Healthy Marathon

What a day.

Nothing is better than having 6 hours straight-up exercise and sports activities.

Indeed, I will fully utilize my holiday period to do useful things, unlike previous holiday semester breaks. Since after I joined FitnessFirst Gym, I feel that life is more than just sitting infront 28 inch monitor, staring at it do shit.

Exercise is great, sports is great. From 12pm till 2pm (GYM), from 2pm till 3pm (BASKETBALL), from 3.30pm till 6pm (BADMINTON).


Half day already gone! Mentally and physically enhanced!!



The holiday is getting interesting and better! Hope to learn my handstand and build a better body shape in near future! Looking forward to them!

There's always a reason for something

I'll have been abandoned my blog for like 9 months.

Yes i'm freaking lazy to update, but after I read some blogs and the dreadful environment on facebook recently, I decided to blog as much as I can for the next week days (If possible I would like to blog everyday).

HOPEFULLY


I am a person who like to think. Even if i'm looking a glass of water, I can think till very far and fantasize many thing. I guess imagination is a good thing eh?

After learning Entrepreneurship Skills for the past 3 months, I've developed myself even stronger in thinking, but eventually this has developed two sides of me.

I start to think nonsense and things that impossible to fulfill. I think one day I might get trouble for thinking too much, and signs have already started (I guess so).

For the past 3 months, I found myself to have fall in love with someone. At first, it was such an amazing feeling, but as times goes on I starting to contradict with this feeling. It was because the girl is such an amazing, yet unpredictable girl.

I began to doubt myself for having this feeling. But sometimes, "if you love someone it does not mean you must get her". All I can do is bless her future and help her as to my fullest, that's my love to her that I can do best.

Suddenly, there's a sentence of lyrics from the song 童话 best suits my feeling now.

“我愿变成童话里，你爱的那个天使，张开双手变成翅膀守护你”





I'm starting to understand Gotham Dark Knight's feeling, sometimes all you can do is PROTECT without hoping any returns.

There's always a reason for something. Perhaps, I'm her dark knight in this case.

Welcome Mr. KWAN CHEE YEONG 9

Even if the CGPA is falling down,
down~
down~

System Down

1.09.2010

My computer Hard Disk officially downed.
All my important files all gone.

:D

I'm still feeling nothing, wth?

1+1+11=WTH

All my life I've been good but now,
Whoaaaa I'm thinking what the hell.
All I want is to mess around,
And I don't really care about.

If you love me,
If you hate me,
You can't save me baby baby